The Pill-less life...

I have to say, it was very strange not to be taking my BCPs last night.  This will be the first time in a very long time...like years, and years, that I have not taken a birth control pill....other than for a surrogacy related pause.  I kept thinking all night, gotta remember to take my pill, and then would have to remind myself, nope, it's all good.  Very strange I tell ya.  It will be interesting to see how my body does without all the hormones I've been pumping into myself for the last 12 years or so.  Let's hope my body does what it's supposed to do and we can get onto the business of baby making!

My favorite things....

A few days ago fellow blogger Kelly @ http://www.kellyskornerblog.com/ posted about simple pleasures and favorite things, so although I'm a couple of days late, I figured better late than never. So here they are...my favorite things.

Sonic Cherry Limeaid

Braums peppermint Ice cream and chocolate marshmellow sundaes

Bubble baths

Football, and Ice Hockey

All things Bath and Body Works

Massages

Fresh, clean sheets

Babies laughing

Christmas Lights

Rainy days

Snow cones

Listening to the waves roll in

Pickles

Waking up in the middle of the night only to realize you have another hour of sleep

Snuggling with my honey

Texas

Whataburger

My kiddos

Home Sweet Home

PJs and slippers

Blogging

And these are a few of my favorite things!

Ob-gyn yesterday....

Ok, so while I love the fact that my OB-Gyn is so wonderful, I do not like that fact that so many other women also think so.  I already know he is in high demand when it takes about 2 months to get in for an annual exam, but seriously.  The waiting room was full, and with only one person checking people in, the line was at least 3 women deep at any given time.  My appointment was at 10, but I didn't get called back until about 10:30.  And although I had worked a 13 hour shift the night before, and was going on no sleep, I didn't really mind waiting, because as I said, he is wonderful! 

Anyway, it looks like I'll be going off the pill after I finish this pack so we can see if I'm ovulating in preparation for the baby making in a few months.  Let's all hope my periods come regularly (the best indication of ovulation), so that we don't have to look at the Clomid option.  Yay!  It's nice to finally be starting towards the baby making in June!

WHATEVER!

So I suppose now we're supposed to believe this crazy loon went from photo A, to photo B, with no assistance from plastic surgery?????  I'm sorry, I'm all for hard work and all, but can I just say...liar, liar, pants on fire???!!!??? 

Her skin alone would hang down to her clown car vagina.  Not to mention the fact that her belly looks like a freaking road map of the US in the before picture...did she discover a magic cure for stretch marks while "working out".  Nope, sorry, I call foul on this one.  My educated guess is she got her new body the same way she got all those babies she didn't really need....good old fashioned medial intervention....and I'm guessing she didn't have to pay for it either.  Nice to know all those kids are paying off for her in such a productive manner.  All aboard the crazy train!

College Football....

Tonight is the BCS National Championship, and all I can say is.........

HOOK 'EM HORNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy New Year's Eve....

2009 was a great year for the Carnes clan....I graduated from nursing school, we bought our first house, Jordan graduated from high school(and made it through her first semester of college), and none of our girls got pregnant(haha...kinda).

Some things we hope to accomplish in 2010....keeping up with my blog much better, losing a few(or a lot depending on how you look at it) of pounds, paying of debt..although this might take until 2011, but we'll give it our best shot, finish getting the new house in order, getting knocked up with a new addition to the Carnes clan, and none of our girls getting pregnant!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all have a wonderful 2010!

I love my job......

but I'll tell you, it sure freaks me out about having another baby! I had three healthy children...with uneventful pregnancies. Then I had a surrogate pregnancy, which was also uneventful. That was followed by another surrogate journey, that included a miscarriage that shook me to the core. It was devastating because it was totally foreign to me....this is not what my body does. My body delivers healthy babies. After the miscarriage, 2 more surrogacy journeys followed resulting in two beautiful and healthy boys. Being involved in the surrogacy world, you learn what can happen...miscarriages before most people even know their pregnant, blighted ovums, ect. Now that we're thinking of having another child of our own, working on an antepartum unit has me totally freaked out about it(not to mention the blogging world)!

We all "know" that women can die in childbirth, even before and still afterwards, but I think unless you have it in your face on a daily basis, you forget about it, or think "nope, we've come too far for that to still be happening", because I know I did. But unfortunately, it still happens. Sitting in a Women's Center class yesterday, one of the instructors, who happens to also work on L&D comes in and asks if any of her L&D people can go to work after the class because it's crazy up there. Then another instructor proceeds to tell us a mom has coded. Those are almost the absolute worst words you can ever hear. You get the worst feeling in the pit of your stomach as you know that there is a mom who will never hold her baby, a baby that will never smell his mother or hear her loving voice outside of the womb. You know that there is a husband who has lost his wife, but has to somehow hold it together for this new life she brought into the world.

I'm a true believer in "when it's your time to go, it's your time to go." I believe when you have completed what God meant for you to do here in this life, you go onto the next. I don't understand why it happens in ways that it does, and I know it's not ever easy to lose a loved one. It just makes the thought of childbirth and pregnancy so scary for me, even though I have done it 6 times already! We are ready and willing to take these chances though, to hold a precious baby in our arms. They are more than worth every chance we take to get them here, but it is a scary thought for me. Let's hope I can hold it together if and when I get pregnant, without becoming a complete basket case....and if you have an extra minute in your day, say a prayer for this poor family who must now mourn and celebrate.